FULL HIATUS
till 13 November '08

I will make everything worthwhile and pwn every damn paper for big fat O's.

I was actually fuming mad but thanks to Silly and his nonsense (haha) I am feeling a lot better.

"Savage Garden is so fab !!!"
"Hahah horrible know, now got inflation still savage garden no food then how ?"

What do you do at this very moment when I think of you ?

YESTERDAY
Was probably the only exhausting yet fun-filled day I had in a long while. Sang along to Allura and West Grand Boulevard during School Invasion Tour I simply love local music. Got myself a 987 CD Hamper, 987 Calender, Allura badge and autographs ! CrezAwards later on at night with SecretLover, Silly and Twin and it was definitely better than last year's. Supper after that and then came home with a sexy voice, ow.

Slept at 1900+ and have been up since 2300+. Couldn't sleep so I did Biology notes yes Biology notes. Gave up after four pages and resorted to eating donuts while listening to the radio and humming along to the songs. At midnight I was annoyed by _ so all my replies were short and cold I am sorry but Love could you let me in on things I do not wish to keep knocking on the door to your Heart and you're not letting me in. School Invasion Tour later shall get WGB to sign on the PE shirt Ronin signed on two years ago. Haven't been Happy lately, and I don't think I'd be any happier any time soon hurrr "Why are you so negative about things ?" That's just the way I am la okay. And do you know ... I am alr in my school uniform right now ??? I am always dressed for school by 0430 everyday, funny in the head, yes ? Off to have more donuts goodbye.

Sometimes I wish I'd ask you, "Does this matter to you at all ?"

You were the last to know your father had lost his money and these young women, ribbons in their hair and hearts so full of spring, already knew enough to know that your newfound affliction warranted, at the very least, profound abandonment. So why do you do this to yourself ? Why do you visit this place pretending that it holds something for you, something pure and joyous ? And why have you dragged me here only to abandon me ?
But that is not it, is it ? That's not all of it. I don't think you have ever realized that what is left out forms part of the story. You don't need these people, and even then only part of you thought that you did, the part that was left out. How is it that I came to know so much of what went on all those days ago inside these sorrowful gates ? I have listened, put things together and hung on to them and you didn't notice this because you were too busy either pretending these stories were meant to be funny or else that they were in lieu of what you had meant to say while undressing for bed or leafing through a street directory in the front passenger seat. Just when you thought I suspected the value in pursuing something, you would pull us both up short : "There is probably more than one way of getting there," you might say, "but why are they always digging up the road I need ?"
"Your Niece's Speech Night" in Elliot Perlman's "The Reasons I Won't Be Coming (Stories)"

I think whoever said it'll all be okay, lied. It's not always going to be okay. Sometimes innocent people die, sometimes the people you thought would always be there leave, sometimes you lose the people you love, sometimes people make mistakes, sometimes people fight, sometimes things go wrong. It's pretty much a guarantee in life that at one point or another, things will go wrong. And it's not necessarily going to be okay in the end, people die sad and alone all the time. Life doesn't fix itself for you, you have to do it. I think its all about how you handle the bad, as well as the good. It's about whether or not you're going to keep that smile on your face, and push yourself to stay happy. I think you make things good, it doesn't just magically happen. Some of the happiest people have the hardest lives. It's all you, you make your life okay.
Credit : hushQTS